I seriously have no idea what I’m doing. This morning, God spoke to me for the first time in my life. I honestly thought there was a physical body right there next to me, saying something. It scared the crap out of me!! God’s voice was so crystal clear, just thinking about it gives me goosebumps. I know it wasn’t me, or anyone around me, because I was sitting in the middle of my college geography class when I heard Him say, “you will work with the church, do missions work, in My name.”
This screws up my entire life plan! I planned to go to UCCS to major in nutrition and to one day have a nice, steady job in Springs or Denver. I bet God has just been laughing his butt off the whole time I was making my own plans.
In an absolute panic, I texted my pastor in class telling him what I was feeling and how I couldn’t do this. He gave me some really great scripture (I’ll put all the scripture and a summary of them at the end of this post) that really helped, but I still feel really sketch about all of this. I meditated during lunch and tried to really think about if this is what God REALLY wants for me (I actually think I’m just trying to reason my way out of this).
But one scripture that has been stuck in my brain all day is Isaiah 6:8 I heard the voice of the Lord say, “Whom shall I send, and who shall go for us?” And I said, “Send me!”
Samuel 3:1-21 — God sounded so real, Samuel thought it was Eli talking to him. At the end of the scripture, Eli tells Samuel, “He is the Lord; let him do what is good in his eyes.”
Jeremiah 1:1-19 — Jer thinks he is too young to do God’s work (yup, sounds like me). I kind of paraphrased a verse. Jeremiah 1:17 — Get ready, stand up, and speak.
Matthew 4:18-22 — This passage talks about how Peter and Andrew dropped everything they knew when Jesus said, “come, follow me” and James and John dropped everything they knew AND left their father for Jesus. That takes guts.
Luke 1:26-38 — Mary saw an angel and was really sketch about it. The MOTHER of Jesus Christ feels how I feel right now… That’s kind of nice to know. Luke 1:37 — “For no word from God will ever fail. Luke 1:38 — I am the Lord’s servant.